As a Matter Of Fact
I’ve been lucky enough to spend the past two years in Madagascar. Working for an interesting company, with interesting people, in a verrrry interesting environment.
It’s rarely easy (but what job is). To add to the…challenges, I’m away from my homeland, where I’m familiar with the country, the culture, and generally how things work. Example: going to the grocery store. In Canada, I’d never give it a second thought. In fact, I think most of us grocery shop on “auto-pilot”.
The first time I went grocery shopping here, I clutched my purse with every muscle I had and was scared for my life. Well, maybe not my life. Well. Ok, maybe I was pretty scared.
In this new-ish life, there are so many unknowns in a process that I used to do without thinking. I think, that for the most part, by now, I’ve figured this out. I’ve accepted the concept (for the most part) that I quite regularly won’t have a clue what to do or how to do it, so take a stab in the dark and try something.
This whole “dive in blindfolded and figure it out” process has changed me. The exposure to sickness, death, and poverty has changed me. The exposure to happiness, while living in a world of sickness, death, and poverty has changed me too. The luxury of traveling to places I didn’t know exist has changed me.
I can’t say for the better or worse… because there is nothing I regret. Even the… interesting (ie: negative) experiences eventually led up to…today. Where I’m happy (most of the time), am working on fixing the things that I don’t like about myself (most of the time), and where the future that remains unwritten. I don’t even know what continent I’ll be living in six months from now.
Back to how I’ve changed. I can’t totally explain it.
In some situations, I’m quieter. Some situations, I’m much more aggressive. Some situations, I’m FAR less patient. Others, I’m WAY more patient. It’s interesting to look back how I’ve changed in the past couple of years. I know not everyone likes these changes but hey, as long as I’m happy…..I guess that’s all that really matters. And those that matter don’t mind, and those that mind, don’t matter. I changed the way that I lived my life, and along with it, I changed too. Somehow this hasn’t made the world come to a grinding halt.