On Off the Couch
While I love Louis and the girls (and his family is seriously awesome), we’re all on new grounds together. Even though we’ve been involved in each other’s lives for two years – it’s TWO YEARS, not five, or ten, or twenty (or thirty two). Louis and I are still young in our relationship and learning how to balance work, fun, and kids.
The night that I got back from Las Vegas, I was tired and irritable. Louis was struggling knowing that he was saying goodbye to his kids the next morning. I couldn't sleep and somehow fell asleep on the couch in the early hours of the morning. I didn’t get a chance to ay goodbye to the girls. It makes me feel horrible. I didn’t need to have a big crying send off, but I really wanted to say goodbye to them…and I didn’t. I’ll see them in July and really - it's a small detail - but it bothers me. Louis and I had our spidey senses up and we both knew that we were struggling a bit. Yes, we’d be back again soon…but sometimes it being away can feel like an eternity.