What I realized is that although the divorce is almost official – I have....some “recovery time” before I’m actually over the divorce. While the lawyer phone calls and appointments and back and forth was happening, I was in the moment, hurt, and dealing with each detail as it came.
And it’s the last month of “official” winter. And I started a new job that’s awesome but exhausting (as any new job would be). And I’m ridiculously hard on myself and discouraged when I don’t feel “happy”.
How could I call someone and just dump on them like that? She has her own life shit to deal with, how could I add to it? How could I cry in front of SP and just leave him at the subway? Why couldn’t I just deal with everything?