Sunday, March 17, 8:31pm


I’m worried I’m not going to make it through the final trip. I have heat rash on my feet, I find it nearly impossible to sleep in the ground, and I’m older than all of the travellers (which I knew going into the trip). 
I feel old, in pain (hip), and just ugly. I’m too hot, I can’t get hydrated enough. I felt so well at Victoria falls...and after this “booze cruise”, where I don’t drink...I just feel like the ugly girl on the side. I don’t need alcohol to have fun, but tonight I just couldn’t mingle as I wanted to. 


And I have to stop worrying about what people back home think of me, this trip, or my life. I worry so much about what the people I love think....I need to stop. Either they support me or they don’t. And if they don’t, then that’s sad, but out of my control. I need sleep. Water. & a little reprieve from the heat. Oh, and confidence. I need a big handful of that. 

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  1. It sounds as if you are struggling a bit. You just hang in there and things will improve . Try to stop worrying about what you can't control and concentrate on enjoying camping. Your body will adjust. Nobody at home has time to judge you as they are all to busy doing what they have to do. Please just have fun. Love G xo

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