Just NB

I don't want to write about the VIRUS, but I have to for a bit. I try to avoid posting or sharing VIRUS related issues, because, even though it's very important that we all stay informed, our brains are inundated with this subject in every single aspect of our lives. (Unless you are living as a monk in a monastery...but even then I would think there would be extra protocols taken). I had been ignoring some very clear, very red flag reactions that I was having. When the pandemic started, I was in isolation because I had returned from Mexico. A month later, I found myself with all of the VIRUS symptoms and spent 9 days in isolation until I was tested and confirmed to be negative. When I went out into the world to do my grocery shopping and necessary errands, I would return to my house in a complete state of panic. I was scared I was breaking rules, I was scared I was shopping at two stores when I should have just paid more and shopped at just one store...or had myself better or...

And just like that, June could be off to a better start. Last night was the first night that I slept soundly (or more soundly than before). I also ended things with a guy that I was on the fence about. It had been weighing me down for a couple of weeks...our definitions of how to be supportive of the other person were vastly different...and I didn't want to do that dance anymore. Maybe my June 2020 conviction helped me push that process a bit faster?