Just NB

Yesterday I went out walking in Luxembourg, not sure what I was going to do, but didn't feel like applying for jobs (or napping :P) all day. Since I knew there was a lot of walking involved....I wore my workout pants. There's just something about jeans and runners that I can't pull off. Did I mention it was +11*C? That means cold, man. I needed to dress for it. But I did get some strange looks! Luxembourg is such a beautiful city! First stop was Namur for a hot chocolate. They are daMN good! But, I always find the service a little too snobby for me. Next I walked over to Place d'Armes and just sat and drank my hot chocolate. (It's rainy right now and I'm tired, so it will be a Wiki link up and not so much an explanation of the place :( ). Couldn't resist trying to capture a picture of these two cute dogs! Next I was on my way to Casemates Petrusses, I think I got a little lost, so I just walked around and took pictures. A memorial ...

Well yesterday night wasn't fantastic (although my hosts were!) which kind of took over most of today.  Finally, after a nap, I decided to go for a walk downtown. Luckily, my friends' place is so close!  Luxembourg is such a beautiful place!!! I could walk around forever. All of the government buildings are nearby, including the Palace where the Duke and Duchess of Luxembourg live! The Duke and Duchess are in town so there pictures are up in lots of shops.  I'm still a little blue, I miss Louis and I don't always understand how this long distance thing works, but the walk did me some good.  Hoping for a better day (mentally) tomorrow!

I had such a great day today, doing practically nothing, going for a quick run with some cool scenery, having an awesome supper and light dessert with friends, and then my mind went crazy. I've been job-hunting more since I've been here, which somehow instantly turns into panic that I'll never find a job, Louis will leave me, and I'll end up working a Starbucks for the rest if my life. (There's nothing wrong with working for Starbucks but I don't think it would make me personally happy, even though I would be lost without them).  A practically perfect day, sort of ruined because I started to panic so much that I just had to go to bed. I'm happy to have done all these fantastic, amazing, mind blowing things. But what about after?!?! What if it's all downhill from here? What if Louis and I can never find a job together? What if we never have children?  Yah. I hate when this happens.

I've decided to forgo the camping in the desert part of the trip in Morocco. Maybe it's because at this point in the vacation, I'd like to hang around people I know, or maybe it's because when I'm covered head-to-toe I get disgusting comments and I feel extremely uncomfortable and don't feel like travelling alone in a similar (ok, it's much worse there) circumstance, or maybe I'm just lonely and want to hang around friends.  Yes, I'm giving up an opportunity, but it's something that I feel strongly about, for whatever the reason, so I'm flying from Abu Dhabi to Luxembourg, where I'll stay with friends for a week. We're planning a weekend tour to Alsace, or somewhere near by, and I'll discover Luxembourg or take the train somewhere for the day. I sort of feel like I'm giving up, like I'm not strong enough to go to a strange country by myself, but not enough to challenge me to go.  I've been emailing my dad and he says t...